The longest sleep after the longest time

So I had it last – eleven long hours - the longest sleep I ever had after the longest years. It could be something I would have never imagined if things didn’t have to change the way it did.

So I lost the man I care about and that dramatically changes pretty much everything of course including my daily time table. With the existing changes first, I no longer have to get interrupted sleep when ex rings my phone at the wee hours of the night telling he’s home from work and that I had to turn the computer on to let him see me even while sleeping. (I miss those times however; I am also starting to like the feeling of being free.)

Imagine the scenario…

On a daily basis we used to spend an “us” time together catching up – that’s from morning down to mid-day my time. Then he goes to bed and from that time on, I get to do my thing (and that is while watching him sleep). I had to wake him up again in his morning so he can get to work on time. And then on some occasions, I wait till his lunch time (that’s midnight my time) to catch up some. That’s how close we feel we are to each other despite the distance.

Again, I miss that part of being with him but like what they say, time heals. And the moment I was over with all the drama and felt I was adjusted, I realized how much productive I’ve had actually become. With the duly accomplished tasks for the day, I can therefore make myself comfortable now sleeping on my bed and not just on couch and at a much earlier time than I used to.

Of course my system has to also adapt to that changes so it’s nothing like an instant thing. It took time before I got finally adjusted. Admittedly though, there are still times I wish things are the way they were but then again, thinking of how things are going and with the way I am moving on now, I just simply have to wear a grin and tell myself “you’re a big girl… you will be fine.” :)